Dear 2015

Monday, February 16, 2015



Dear 2015,

Hi. I know it's early to be writing you a letter, a mere 44 days after you've begun, but we need to have a chat. I'm going to be blunt; you've kind of sucked so far. I don't know who gave you your job description, but I am 99% sure that whatever was in it, all the crap that has befallen me, my family, and my friends was not in there. I mean, 2014 wasn't super awesome for a lot of people either, but that doesn't mean that we can set the bar as low as you seem to have set it. I'm trying to be brave over here, but you're making it really difficult.

At the beginning of the year, we're supposed to be hopeful. There's a whole year, spread in front of us, to be filled with good memories and hard work and fun, and even if there are bad times (which there always will be), the thought that we'll be able to get through them should be at the forefront of our minds. Instead, you decided right away to hit us where it hurt. We weren't feeling especially strong to start out, and yet you took us down a peg anyway. Rude.

In the 44 days since you've began, we have had great loss and a lot of grief, and we are not alone. You have truly run the gamut of "shitty things":

A friend's dog died, unexpectedly, and she couldn't be there with him in his last moments.

A friend and her fiance signed contracts on a house, only to have it fall through after the inspection. 

There was emotional upset at family members, and angst. Lots of angst.

There has been illness, injury, and a lot of lost time and energy.

We had 3 weeks of fraught ultrasounds and medical appointments, only to lose our first baby.

Since then, I've been dealing with the miscarriage that simply seems never-ending.

A friend's house had a huge leak and basically trashed the basement.

There has been anxiety and depression that often felt bottomless.

A friend lost one of her twins in utero at 22 weeks, then had her water break at 27 weeks and is on bedrest for the duration of her pregnancy.

A close friend lost her father to malignant melanoma.

I would give you an A for creativity and effort if I didn't want to set you on fire. 

I can only figure that your plan is to get all of the shitty nonsense out of the way, so that the rest of 2015 will be awesome, or at the very least, tolerable. However, I must say that this is really a terrible plan and that I do not agree with it at all.

So please, 2015, take a hint from the Chinese New Year, which is February 19th. Let's start over. I'm sure that we can still be friends, but please... go a little easier on all of us. 

Let 2015 be a year of healthy pregnanices and healthy babies. A year of healthy pets and family members. A year where houses don't flood, catch on fire, or fall down. A year where wedding planning goes smoothly for people, and house-buying is as easy as possible. A year where the grief is minimal and the joy is multiplied. A year where people get hired and stay hired. A year where money doesn't occupy our every waking thought. A year where chronic illness doesn't ruin plans and hopes. A year where we can control our anxiety and alleviate pain and suffering around us, not only in our lives, but in the lives of others. I'm not asking for the perfect year, because I know that isn't possible. What I'm asking for is to give us a break. Let us regain our strength, to get our feet under us, and to move forward. Let's make 2015 less sisyphean. We can work together and make it happen, I swear.

We deserve it, after these last 44 days. I'm sure there are a lot of us, far beyond my circle of friends and family, who would appreciate a little levity. We'll thank you for it, I promise.

Love,

PS: If you can make spring come a few weeks early, without like, ruining the planet and all, that would be great. 

2 comments:

  1. I'm 100% with you on formally requesting a do-over for 2015. The one thing I'd keep is being able to stay home with my kids, but the way I was forced to make that decision is unappreciated. I really hope things get better for you!

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  2. Thanks, I hope things turn around for you, too! (Although time with the kiddos is always good!)

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