The Thankful Project: Day 9... and Other Days as Well

Saturday, November 9, 2013

 

 Shocking no one, I fell off the wagon and forgot to blog. We have a lot to cover, so let's get to it:

Day 6: A failure
Ugh, I didn't want to write this post because I dwell a lot on things I perceive to be failures. Something that I know a lot of people would argue with me about being a failure is my first attempt at medical school. To be fair, I didn't fail out; I left. But... I did fail two classes that, had I stayed, I would have had to remediate during the summer. I felt like such a mess when I was leaving med school and after I left.that I thought I might never be okay ever again. 

Turns out, I would be okay, even if I don't feel okay all the time. If I hadn't left medical school, I never would have met Ken (and that would have been really sad, right?) I wouldn't have gotten my MPH, which now sets me apart from a lot of other people applying to medical school, and I wouldn't have worked in clinical research with some amazing people. Leaving medical school made me realize how bad I really wanted to be a physician and how far I would go to achieve that. So... the failure itself totally sucked, and I hated it... but I can't help but be thankful for it because without it, I wouldn't have met my husband and I definitely wouldn't have learned about myself and life if I hadn't had the hardship of leaving med school.

Day 7: A job
Like most Drexel students, I had the opportunity to complete a co-op experience for 2 quarters. I was pretty excited, because who doesn't want to make money while they're in school, and I was also excited to have two quarters off from classwork (even though I took a class during one co-op quarter... bad life choice). I interviewed at a bunch of places and took a position with Merck in the Molecular Endocrinology. It started out okay... but I quickly learned that bench research was not my passion. In fact, it was one of my least favorite things in the world. This job also taught me that sometimes, you can't trust your coworkers, and that sucks. It also made me realize how much you have to be your own advocate. This was the first time my illness really got in the way of my life. At the time, it was still unidentified, but I was basically sick the entirety of the second quarter of my co-op. My manager was really understanding with my absences, but the other students who were my coworkers were not, and in the end, neither was HR. Two weeks before the end of the co-op, I was driving to work in the snow (the commute sucked and I hated it) when my phone rang. The co-op coordinator from Drexel, who wasn't my favorite person to begin with, told me that I had been terminated and that I wasn't allowed to go to work to collect my things. I was devastated, embarrassed, and confused. It turned into a much bigger issue that ended with me getting credit for half of the co-op, not having to redo anything, and getting a letter and support from the Office of Disability Resources. Anyway, the job was pretty horrible, but I'm thankful that I had it because I learned a lot about myself and the working world.

Day 8: Words
As a book lover, I've loved words for as long as I can remember. I love quotes, I love poetry, I love stories... I love it all. I can't pick just a few words for which I'm thankful, so I'm going with a couple of quotes, and a mentioning of some of my favorite books.

"You can be afraid and you can do it anyway." - Dr. Murray Needleman

"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." - Plato/Philo of Alexandria/Ian MacLaren/John Watson

"It is okay to say no to unnecessary crazy."

"Even after all this time
The Sun never says to the Earth,
"You owe me."
Look what happens with a love like that.
It lights the whole sky.”

- Hafiz

"If a thing loves, it is infinite." - William Blake

"There's a million kinds of crazy, and I kind of like mine...." - Anna Nalick, "Break Me Open"

And some of my favorite books:

American Gods, Neil Gaiman
Cutting for Stone, Abraham Verghese
Far from the Tree: Parents, Children and the Search for Identity, Andrew Solomon
Oryx and Crake, Margaret Atwood
Complications: A Surgeon's Notes on an Imperfect Science, Dr. Atul Gawande
How to Be a Woman, Caitlin Moran
The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Douglas Adams
Let's Pretend this Never Happened, Jenny Lawson


Well, that's a... varied mix, there. So, if you're looking for a good book to read, check one of those out, and leave me your favorite quotes in the comments. :)

Day 9: A photo
My first instinct for this was to post yet another photo of my wedding, but I feel as though I've covered that pretty well already. I love photos, and I am really excited because I'm starting to learn more about taking pictures with my DSLR and actually having them come out semi-related to how I want them to. Here are some of my favorite photos for which I am so very thankful:

 Ok, I had to sneak one wedding photo in there. This is the first time my dad saw me in my gown and I love it to death.

LF and me, with our typical Biore warming face masks. This photo just makes me giggle.

My big, orange, kitty... Gershwin! Love that face.
Spaz-cat extraordinaire, Luna
My beautiful Memily <3

Steve, Joshua FREAKING Radin, and me after last week's concert!
Levi and me... typical.
One of the gorgeous vineyard shots by Allison Andres from our honeymoon!
And that, my friends, is that! On to a night full of writing papers, watching terrible movies on Netflix, and snuggling the kitties. Oh, and eating brownies. Duh.

Have a good night, everyone!

- A

5 comments:

  1. Ok. One more reason for you to come visit. You liked American Gods. I live 40 minutes from House on the Rock.

    Did you buy a ticket yet? No? I'll wait...


    ... How about now?


    ... ::sigh::

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  2. That wedding picture is amazing! What a fun picture! And I love that Needleman quote. So true.

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    1. Thanks! That is one of my favorite photos from the entire day. It just captured everything in that moment. And that quote became my mantra when I was in Israel and basically terrified of everything. It's a good mantra to have, haha. Thanks for stopping by!

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  3. L.O.V.E the photo of you and your Dad when he saw you in your wedding dress!

    Molly

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    1. Thanks! I am getting that photo, one of us walking down the aisle, and one of our first dance all framed for him for Hanukkah!

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